FROM HAIKU, MAUI
A PERSONAL ESSAY: An out-of-this-world and out-of-body experience - literally
An amazing experience of morphing into a spirit, stepping through the gateway to immortality, becoming one with God, and seeing the future and the past
HAIKU, Maui, July 18, 2011 - I should have figured that the most astounding experience of my entire life would happen on a triple #11day (see Importance of Masters' #11 in My Life). I should have, but I didn't. When I walked into a condo Linda and Earl Backman had rented near Keauhou Bay in Kona, Big Island, I was blissfully unaware of the date (7-11-11). Dr. Linda Backman, a well-known psychologist and a master regression facilitator, and I were scheduled to do about a three-and-a-half hour regression session. The purpose was to revisit one of my important past lifetimes and see what I can learn from it. But we knew that the choice was not up to us. My light being guides would decide which one they would show us and why.
So neither of us had any specific expectations. We were open to anything. Never in a million years, though, would I have guessed which door the spirits would choose to open for us. It was not a door to any of my past lifetimes. It was a portal to eternity and immortality. And a gateway to a direct fusion with God. The journey was literally an out-of-this-world and out-of-body experience. But its effects on my physical being were very real and quite dramatic. In fact, the sensations were so powerful and so extraordinary that, at times, they felt like bolts of lightening or megavolts of energy coursing through my body.
As a result, tears were running down my cheeks like streams after a spring thaw. My chest was heaving and convulsing. I felt cold, yet I was sweating. I believe I was shaking, or at least it felt as if I were. I had to run to the bathroom and pee literally every five minutes or so. At one point, while urinating, I had even squirted some poop into my pants. Haven't done anything like that since I was a child. At the peak of the divine vibrations, Linda said she could feel the energy rise in the entire room. And her husband Earl, who also channels light beings and is thus sensitive to the changes of energy, reportedly felt it even in another room.
At the peak of the energy surge, my light being guides took over and started to educate me about medicine. They explained to me what was happening in my body and why. They "told" me to stop the session. Then they explained why. And then they coached me on what I needed to do to start recovering. Several hours later, they even picked the dinner menu for me to make sure I received the most beneficial nourishment. By about 11PM - almost eight hours (!) after my session with Linda had started - I felt I had finally reoccupied my body.
At all times, my communications with the spirit world were entirely telepathic. Not a single word was spoken. Yet every message was as lucid and clear as a bell. And it went beyond clear. It was also comprehensive. It encompassed ALL SENSES, including FEELINGS and the kind of intelligence which can only be called GNOSIS. For the first time in my life, I now understand what telepathy really is: It is becoming one with another (light) being or entity.
As a result, I now also OWN the light being called Altzar. When I say, "I am Altzar," I mean it with my whole being. And it feels wonderful. It's like having lived a life of an orphan for 66 years and then suddenly discovering your true identity. It's comforting and reassuring to know who and what you are, and where your permanent home is.
As for becoming one with God, that is the kind of experience which words cannot describe. Being a writer, I will try to paint pictures and color emotions with words. But you will need your own imagination to complete the painting and the journey. Come along...
Preamble and Setup
Before we start this extraordinary journey, I need to set it up with things I already knew before the regression session with Linda. About two and a half years ago, I was told by two multidimensional beings that my astral name is Altzar, that my function is to be a Rainbow Giver (connector between worlds), and that I come from the Dogon star (Sirius B). I had had more than 30 spirit guides show up and honor me at my astral rebirth ceremony on Feb 25, 2009 (see the image on the left and Altzar's Rebirth & Mantras).
One of the gifts I received from Paul the Venetian was a luminous staff that connects me directly to the Creator. I have not felt the need to use it, saving it only for the most dire circumstances. But I did experience God directly once, in March 2009. I had spent two half-days in a crystal chamber working with one of those multidimensional beings. At the end, God came to me as a bright white light shining directly into my heart (see the image on the right and Traversing the Universe with Chandra, Mar 5-6, 2009). As warm and beautiful as that experience was of feeling God's light and love in my heart and chest, the sensation was not even one-tenth of the intensity I felt during my second encounter with God (7-11-11).
After Altzar's astral rebirth ceremony in 2009, I also received several mantras which I was to use when calling on my spirit guides or the Creator during prayers or incantations. I accepted them as truth, and have been saying them nearly every day for the last two-and-a-half years. In fact, opened the sacred space before my regression session with Linda on July 11, in part, using these words:
I also used some other mantras ((see Mantras), including this one:
Two years ago, I even got a custom license plate that reads ALTZAR. I also registered back in 2009 the name for this web site (altzar.org). The fact that both were available, I took as another confirmation that I must be indeed Altzar.
In truth, given that the name Altzar and all these mantras came to me via third party channels, they always felt like wearing borrowed clothes. There was an inkling of doubt lurking somewhere deep down. No longer. AfterJuly 11, 2011, I know I AM the immortal soul of ALTZAR. And when I thank God for being one with me, I now know he/she is ME.
Lastly, I finally understand the meaning of what Apu Huaskaran, an Andean mountain spirit, told us, a group of western shamans, on July 4, 2008. He said that the "life in this body is only "a preparation for a return HOME." In other words, he confirmed that our souls return to the spirit world ("home") after our bodies expire.
Journey through the Elements
Okay, enough preamble and set up. Fasten your seat belts. We're off on a journey the likes of which you have probably never experienced before...
It took a long time for me to reach the trans level deep enough for my spirit guides to take over. Of course, I'd lost track of time. But if I were to guess, I'd say it was over an hour. When I finally reached level 4 on a scale of 1 to 36 (36 being fully alert), I found myself in on a forest road in front of me, lined with trees on both sides. The images that follow are my approximation and simulation of what I saw.
Unfortunately, before I could make heads of tails of what that meant, I had to run to the bathroom again. It was only later on, in retrospect, that I understood why the journey started there. The Forest and the Land represented the Earth element. My guides wanted me to start the journey as an Earth spirit. As I know from my shamanic pilgrimages and conversations with the earth spirits, they are all female - "Santa Tierra's" - as we call the caretaker-mothers of the earth. And they were quick to point out that they were here before the Apus (the male mountain spirits).
When I returned from the bathroom, my whole body was vibrating as if electricity was running through it. It took no time to get back into the state of trans.
I was deep down in the ocean, looking up toward the surface which appeared as a faint light. I remember thinking, "strange that I have no problem breathing underwater." And then I realized... that's because I AM the Ocean. I am no longer in my human body. I am the spirit of Water. Which is why being the Ocean feels like being home.
Suddenly, I noticed some commotion in front of me. The color of the ocean started to change from blue-gray to brown. There was a lot of churning.
Slowly, a bell-shaped form emerged (left). Still churning furiously, it slowly started to take on a red glow. Water and fire seemed to be mixing, such as when red molten lava enters the ocean (right). My heart was pounding. My whole body seemed to be churning like the energy vortex I was seeing.
And then, the bell-shaped image expanded, engulfing all. Everything around me was red. I was inside the molten lava. Yet I was not hot nor lacking oxygen. Because I WAS the Lava spirit.
At that point, I began to rise. I knew what's happening. I was a Volcano about to erupt. As I rise up the volcano funnel toward the surface, I shout like a person possessed, "I am Pele. I am Pele." I have morphed into the spirit that called me to Hawaii, the Goddess of Volcanoes and Fire. She has been the most consistent presence in my life since before I moved to Maui. That was My planetary mission here at the Rainbow Shower was to awaken the Hawaiian volcano spirits and help connect them to the Andean mountain spirits. That's what I was told by the two multidimensional beings in early 2009. And now, not only did I awaken Pele - I WAS Pele!
My excitement at being Pele grew with every step of the ascent up the volcano shaft. When we finally exploded into the atmosphere, I felt as if I my chest was also exploding with with joy.
Now things are calming down. I am the the wind, the Air spirit. I see the clouds around the volcano reflecting the reddish glow from the eruption. I enjoy the relative tranquility of being the wind and floating weightlessly. I want to stay there a bit longer, but then the scenery starts to change again.
Journey through the Universe
"We are leaving the Earth," I hear myself tell Linda. I feel being elevated toward the sky and leaving the atmosphere. It is an effortless ascent. I no longer have a physical body. Everything is dark around me. I enjoy gliding through cosmos. It's very serene, beautiful, relaxing. Stars are all around me and I feel like one of them. But not in a physical sense. Everything feels familiar, like home.
Eventually, I notice a triangle being formed out of white light, with beautiful blue shimmering streamers along the outside edges. I feel excitement rising again inside of me. I explain to Linda that blue is my favorite color; that when I die and leave the human body I go to a blue chamber to relax and recuperate. And then celestial telepathy begins...
I now know that the white triangle is ME, Altzar (like the shape of the letter A). The light beings are letting me know that that's who I really am.
I begin to cry when I feel their message, "Welcome home, Altzar!" I KNOW this is home. My entire being knows it. My body is practically pulsating with joy.
"And what does Altzar do?" I hear Linda asking. I think I repeat the question to the spirits.
"You are a Rainbow Giver," comes back the answer.
But when "they" (the light beings) "tell" me, "you are a child of the Universe," I begin to cry loudly.
I recognize the similarity and the authenticity of the mantra I received on my astral rebirth (the phrase, "I am a child of the Original one"). The emotional discharge takes a while. It is quite possible that I had also had to go to the bathroom again at some point between these telepathic messages. But I am no longer in control of my body. So I am not sure. Fortunately, Linda is recording all this. So we will eventually know for sure what happened when.
After I enjoy being home for a while, feeling the love of my spirit guides, I begin to notice a light emerging from the top of the triangle.
It gradually grows in size till I realize it is the Sun. Inti Taiti, Father Sun, is appearing to me for the first time as white and golden glow. "You are a ray of the original Sun," I feel His message telepathically. I notice a little black hole in the Sun at about 10 o'clock. Then I realize... that's me - the ray of the original sun.
The vibrations and the excitement continue to rise in my body. I feel as if I am going to explode. And then just as I think I cannot take any more, Father Sun retreats and a faint while light appears at the top of the triangle. At first it looks like a star. Then it also gradually grows in size.
Being One with God
"The eye of God," I whisper in awe and recognition (having seen it once before). Even though I am a writer, I cannot think of adequate words to use to describe how I felt when God "said" to me, "you are God. You are one with me."
I just know that I jumped up and had to go to the bathroom again. My telepathic exchange with the Creator continued there. I was sobbing loudly as I "heard" this message:
"You should stop your session now. Don't worry about your past lifetimes. You are done. You are coming home after this one. You are on the right track. Just keep doing what you're doing. Your job is to shine the light of God onto others."
My light beings-guides then gave me a quick medical lesson on what was happening. The divine energy had apparently activated and agitated all of my glands. Since I have an enlarged prostate anyway, this has caused me to have an urge to urinate constantly. "So drink lots of water," they told me. "And don't eat anything heavy for dinner."
When I came out, Linda was waiting for me in the hallway. She looked worried. I walked up to her and gave her a big warm hug, heart-to-heart. "I want to share some of God's energy with you," I explained.
That's when she told me that she had felt the energy rise in the entire condo, and that Earl had been channeling with the light beings as well. "Just to make sure you were okay," she added. "They told him you were."
And that's it. We stopped the session at this point and sat down to recap what had happened. Once again, I do not know how long that process took. But I have a feeling it was even longer that it had taken me to reach the state of trans. The entire time, I was gulping one glass of water after another, and running to the bathroom in between.
Aftermath: First Evening
When I finally felt well enough to attempt a five-minute drive back to the hotel, I thanked Linda and Earl and left. I was wrong. I did not make it back to our room before having to pee again. So I did it in the bushes of the hotel parking lot. That's when I also squirted some poop in my underwear. That was embarrassing. I have not done anything like that since I was a kid. I walked from the parking lot to the hotel restroom to clean up and get rid of the underwear. Power of divine energy now took on a whole new dimension. I felt I was being thoroughly cleansed. The only thing I had not done is throw up.
When I got back to our hotel room, I briefly explained to Elizabeth what had happened. I felt the need to lie down and keep my eyes closed. I only described the session in a few sentences, as I did not want to bring about a new eruption of emotions while replaying everything. Which is what happened when I did my recap with Linda.
Finally, I calmed down enough to dare a 15-minute drive from our hotel to the Chinese restaurant bathroom. We made it there just in time. When I returned to the table, I looked at the menu. After a brief discussion with the waiter I ordered two dishes I have never heard of before...They were "just what the doctor ordered."
"I feel that my spirit guides have ordered the dinner for me," I told Elizabeth. "I have no idea what I will be eating."
But they knew exactly what my body needed. Within about an hour or so, I felt almost human again. Elizabeth and I finished the night lying in lounge chairs by the ocean and watching the moon and the waves.
First Night, Day After
First Morning Back Home: Magical Moonset, Sunrise... New Poem, Music, Video
Back home in Maui, the magic the July 11 regression session had started was continued. I had an amazing homecoming welcome choreographed by my light being guides. Even though it had been quite dry while we were gone, after I had asked for rain yesterday afternoon, light sprinkles started within a few minutes as Elizabeth and I sat in the spa (evening of July 14). They created a pretty little rainbow in the dying seconds of the setting sun. She had already gone inside by then, but I called for her to come out as I felt it was meant for her, too.
I thanked Goddess Namaka for it and asked her to keep coming back. And she did. The rain continued on and off all through the night.
I woke up at 5:25 this morning (July 15). I am NOT an early riser. Yet I was feeling great. So I knew that my guides must have been working on me during the night even though I did not remember any dreams. Something made me walk outside. I was still stark naked. What I saw took my breath away. A gorgeous full moon was setting in the west as the dawn was awakening in the east.
"So that's what you wanted me to see and feel," I said to my guides. I went inside and grabbed my camera. This is what I saw...
I got dressed and started walking down into the gulch and over to the opposite hill.
From there, I observed the above sunrise.
The entire time, I felt ONE with everything I saw. My eyes teared up as I understood that that's what my guides wanted me to experience. I spent about an hour walking around the property (7 acres), talking to trees, flowers, rocks, the wind. By the time I came back to the house (with Elizabeth still asleep), I had written a poem that fits right within the original Altzar mantra. No, strike the "I." My spirit guides wrote this poem for me. I've highlighted the new parts it in purple.
And here's the image they gave me to go with the mantra/poem (right). I am now waiting for the music to arrive to go with these lyrics. I know it will. I just don't know when.
Actually, my guides woke me up early again yesterday morning (July 16) to remind me that I'd already written the music about the four elements, back in April (see below). And that I did it (subconsciously) in the exact order in which Altzar morphed into each of the four elements in that regression session:
Forest & Sky Improvisation (Apr 2)
Water Improvisation (Apr 6)
Fire Improvisation (Apr 10)
So I "just" need to do the universe journey part - where the Sun and God's eye appear to Altzar - and then integrate it all together. I am sure that musical download is coming soon, too. [Updated Aug 17]: Oops... I've done that, too, my guides also reminded me recently. Check out these music videos:
Finally, I've also just made a 20-minute film I have made about that amazing regression session. How do you make a movie about something nobody else has ever seen? Or at least not that I know of. That was my multidimensional challenged. And the Multidimensional Journey (by Bob Altzar Djurdjevic, Aug 16, 2011) video is a result.
The film also includes my Teacher's explanation what it was about as he relayed it to me on Aug 5. But it is a PRIVATE video. To view it, you must first register with me. To request access to it, click here to send me an email message. Thank you.
Back to the magical Friday morning, when I came back to the house, I looked up the "official" moonset-sunrise times July 15:
I noticed that I took my last photo at 6:49:53 AM. So my guides wanted me to experience this magic for a full hour and a half.
HAIKU, Maui, July 18 - It has now been a week since that profound experience. My light beings-spirit guides have stayed with me, continuing to guide me day and night. I feel as if they had rewired my whole sensory system. I am now seeing and feeling things I had not experienced before. Or at least not as clearly as I do now. Here's just one small case in point...
The heart you can see in the left photo, carved by nature in the rock at the bottom of the Rainbow Shower creek ,had probably been there for thousands, if not millions of years. I had passed by that rock hundreds of times. Yet I only noticed the heart for the first time today. Right next to it was also a spade with a bird in flight image inside of it (right).
Seconds before, I had stopped to touch the "womb of Mother Earth," and express my love for Pachamama (Mother Earth). I placed my hand on another prehistoric touchstone I discovered on a double #11 day at the bottom of the gulch (6-11-11, two pictures on the right).
And the beat goes on...
This afternoon (July 21, 2011), while driving around the island, I told Elizabeth how it was wonderful that we have been getting all this rain I had asked for when we returned from the Big Island. "But we have not seen many rainbows," I lamented.
Lo and behold, after we got home, check out this clear sky rainbow which preceded and followed my evening prayers:
Preceded and followed? Yes. In between, while I was communicating with the spirits, a misting cloud appeared which enveloped me like a heavenly blanket. Then the mist cleared and another rainbow appeared, just before the sun set. Pure magic. And bliss.
HAIKU, Maui, Jan 22, 2012 - When I wrote the original "Shepherd of the Earth" piece six months ago, and made the video which tried to recreate the amazing out-of-this-world and out-of-body journey I experienced during a regression session in Kona on 7/11/11, I thought that was the end. So I finished the story with the words "THE END" (see above).
Huh! What arrogance. But what do I know about beginnings and ends... As it turned out, what happened last July was really merely a beginning of a series of revelations which led me to discover earlier this month what my "extra credit" planetary mission in this lifetime is to be. It is a "Steward of the Earth," as the three Light Beings from another galaxy paraphrased my "Shepherd of the Earth" revelation in a private channeling session on Jan 3, 2012. Here's an excerpt from our dialogue on this topic:
[Oh, my God... it’s starting to come to me now (at 11:40PM on 1/4/12): Large mountain ranges, like the Himalayas, the Alps, the Andes, the Rockies... and, of course, Mauna Kea/Loa - the world’s largest mountains... are like huge antennas, the Earth’s lightening rods. If I can help link up the “sick” and distraught (disconnected) parts of the Earth (like the volcanoes and earthquake-causing tectonic plates) to them via the ley lines, kind of like we (as ancient Inca shamans) tried to lasso the Sun to the hitching post in Machu Picchu, these enormous mountain rods can drain and dissipate destructive energy from volcanoes and earthquakes. They can become sort of like the Earth’s energy mulching stations that can minimize or prevent eruptions and destruction in the surrounding areas. And then, the Mother can once again vibrate in sync, as all her body parts communicate with each other in harmony.
Ever since I learned this, I have been researching the subjects of ley lines, crop circles, geomancy, vortexes on our planet, and have had numerous fascinating revelations already. But I can't do this alone. I need your help. This is OUR MOTHER, our planet. As you saw from my response to the Light Beings, I feel will take GROUP ACTION to try to balance Mother Earth and bring humanity in alignment with her energetic ley lines. Are you willing to sign up to the cause and join me in this call to service as one of the Stewards of the Earth?
If so, we will need to co-create both our mission and how to do carry it out. I don't have all the answers. In fact, at this point, I mostly have a lot of questions. But when future revelations or intuitions occur to me, I will share it with the group. Maybe they will inspire some revelations in you? Maybe they will awaken a part of your DNA which has been locked up in amnesia?
And vice versa... perhaps ideas that come to you will spark creative thoughts with someone else in our group?
For now, I have just registered the name of OUR new web site: www.gaiasteward.org . I invite your ideas as to how we can best make use of it. Welcome aboard!